I guess we're dating now?

Theatre good, loved it. A bit of hand holding and a sheepish kiss goodbye on the tube. He booked us tickets for the end of Feb to some replica funfair thing over at Canary Wharf.

He asked if I wanted to do something two Fridays ago and we went to see Avatar, afterwards he invited me in and we kissed some more and he asked me if I'd stay and I wanted sex so said yes.

He was rough, and I kept getting him to stop and slow down, but he was like a horny teenager, all hands everywhere and it was awkward. I genuinely asked the poor fuck if he'd ever actually slept with anyone before as I couldn't believe his ex would have let that behaviour slide. He laughed at me. He promised to take it steady so we can get used to the idea and that we'd carry on being honest with each other.

I arranged for the Boy to look after the dogs last Friday as we were supposed to be meeting our mutual friends for the early kick off at his local and it was still very awkward and I guess a bit of an "ick, I can't believe we're doing this?" factor, we went to a pub over in Welling and then came back again and did manage to actually fuck. 

In the morning we showered and oh god, I nearly turned into a melting dribbly girl as he washed my hair. No one has ever done that before. Not even Welshy back in the early days. I'm falling. I really am and I don't want to, not yet. 

We played Secret Squirrel among his friends which is amusing me greatly, having this little secret no one knows about!