The whole wee Situationship continues. Its been so much fun, we've been Bowling and to a fairground thing at Canary Wharf, he's met the dogs and we walked around Lullingstone and a meal and he stayed at mine, we've been to the cinema a couple of times and an immersive interactive shooting thing and drank a lot of cocktails together. 

And fucked. A lot. I deffo think I have more experience than him and he admitted last weekend that sex with his ex had been mediocre to poor at best. (personally I think that if he was as rough with her as he tries with me, no wonder the poor in-experienced cow would have majorly gone off of sex)  

And I've caught feelings, I have hard, right from when he washed my hair, he's kind and gentle and considerate, all stuff I've known because of the friendship but realising properly now. I just keep thinking (screaming) in my head when we're together that "I Fucking adore you" and I'm not saying owt yet as... well.... E2.0 fucked up around this time and its still too soon and I'm acting like a fucking horny teenager.

We're still playing Secret Squirrel amongst our friends which is fun and taking it slow, just seeing each other at the weekend and I'm starting to want to push this along a bit more, take him to Dog events and that which kick off for the summer this weekend. 

And speaking of acting like a horny teenager, apparently at the same time this whole shit kicked off, The Brat met someone and has practically moved in with them and if stalking his Facebook is correct, got engaged!!!

I'm so concerned about it, we know he's not obviously able to rationise things like others. What's the deal with this girl? Does she have the same learning difficulties as him? She must do as he doesn't even fucking own a toothbrush and the last time I saw him, he had only taken one weeks worth of clothes to hers. Which I hope to God he's washing as its not nearly a month later....

I want him to be happy, I do. Genuinely. And its nice not having his mess everywhere and I can tidy the house more but fuck what is going on?

Finally in this quick update. I've taken a loan out. I'm hoping I can be responsible with it. I've used it to clear all my credit cards and it will only be paying back 50 quid more a month than what I pay now. September 2025, it'll all be over, she says praying to every God that's ever existed.